We've been home for a couple weeks now. I'm so thankful that my husband was able to take off work for the first week. I was pretty much bedridden. The pain was quite rough. The second week my sister flew in with my nephew. Thankfully I was feeling more normal and able to move around better. She was a huge help and made us dinner every night and helped clean the house. With all the help with daily house work and such I had enough energy to do some fun stuff with her and my nephew. We did a short trip to the zoo, Ikea, Kaleidoscope, and even got a date with my husband, and some one on one time shopping with my sister.
This week has been my first week by myself getting back to a normal schedule. It has been interesting. With the excitement and adrenaline wearing off I have had a world of emotions. Having to work through the emotions of things not having gone expected and in a sense mourning the fact that I didn't get to labor and give birth to him. I know I may be a bit crazy, but I love that experience and it gives me a sense of accomplishment and a form of bonding. The fact that he was suddenly ripped out of my body is effecting more than I expected. I am still so thankful that everything went well and everyone was and is safe, and I feel that it was the Lord's timing, but I just have to work through my missed expectations. Of course this is all made harder by all the hormones trying to stabilize, my inability to function normally due to still healing from surgery, and the exhaustion that comes from simply having a newborn, let alone 5 other kids. One being a toddler having a hard time adjusting. I've started getting Joshua David on a schedule and that is helping me get a little more sleep.
I would love any prayers for dealing with the trauma, healing well, and the adjustment for the kids.
If you like to see some pictures click here to see Joshua David and my sister and nephew.