13 Week OB Appt

This week I had my OB appointment. I was pretty nervous because I had had some bleeding and of course had to fight fear of the worst! However my fears were quickly relieved when my OB not only found the heart beat, but kept having to move the Doppler because the baby was so active moving all around! It is finally feeling real and like I can start to get more excited! I also got to make my sonogram appt which will be June 13th!!! Can't wait to find out who this little one is!!! And....praise The Lord.... I am starting to feel better!! After weeks of extreme nausea I wondered if I would ever feel better, I still have my rough times and days, but at least I'm having more and more good days!!

Easter Sunday

Today is a great day! A day we celebrate and remember the amazing sacrifice and the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ!!

Also, today I'm 10 weeks!!! I'm starting to feel better and NO MORE SHOTS!! I'm a little nervous, but super excited to not have to stick giant needles in my back side every night any more! Woo Hoo!!!

I'll have to take a picture soon, because I have quite the belly going on already! I guess after 4 previous pregnancies, my body know just what shape to go into, that and my abs never went back together after my first baby...

8 weeks till I get another ultrasound and get to find out if we're having a boy or girl! It feels so far away, but I know it will go fast! Most of the kids want a girl to make it even so we'd have 3 boys and 3 girls.

Sono #2

Today I am 8 weeks 3 days and baby grew great and is one day ahead of schedule! It's heart beat was all the way up to 175!! Way to grow baby!!!! It's amazing how much they grow and change in such a short amount of time!! In about 10 more weeks and we will get to find out if it's a he or she!! So far, yet so close!

Ultrasound #1

I haven't fully digested the information. I am completely happy that they found one perfect little bean! It measured 6w0d when I'm 6w4d, but the doctor said that's totally fine! He had a strong heart beat and everything looked perfect. I am honestly sad that one didn't make it, but I'm handing it over to God trusting that he knows best and rejoicing for the precious life growing inside me! Over all we made heaven a little fuller with 5 precious Filipino babies and I know they are happy and we will enjoy the one he is blessing us with on earth! We still have a long journey ahead of us with this little one so please don't stop praying!!! I will have another ultrasound in 2 weeks. Also, we still have funds that we need to pay for from all this life saving and would appreciate any donation! Thank you all for going along this journey with us! It helps more than you know!!

Beta #2

Today I went to get my blood drawn to check my hcg levels again to make sure they've doubled. Monday my number was 71 so it needed to be at least 142. The nurse called, and I asked if she had good news for me and she said "Yes! Your number is 206!!!" Praise the Lord my numbers almost tripled! I can safely say I'm pregnant!! It feels surreal to say that and almost scary! I go for an ultrasound in 2 weeks!! March 26th!! Can't wait!! Hoping to see more than one little bean with strong heart beats! Now to stay busy getting our house ready to put on the market to help the time pass! Thank you all for you prayers! Keep them coming! There is still a long road ahead of us!

1st Beta

Today I had my first beta test (HCG levels) and they were 71. I was hoping for a higher number, but the nurse said this was a solid number! I'm still having to fight a lot of fear and anxiety so I would appreciate prayers to help fight it! I'm trying to focus on Jesus and nothing else, but it's really hard. Wednesday I go back to check my levels again. They NEED to DOUBLE! Please pray they do!!! If they do then I have to order another chunk of meds. $$ Ouch, but what ever it takes to keep these babies safe! I won't know how many are in my womb until the end of the month when I have an ultra sound. Feels so far away!!!

TWW

The time between having sex when you ovulate, or after an embryo transfer (ET) is often referred to as TWW (Two Week Wait) It is brutal!! Why?? Because it consumes your brain!!! It's all you can think about!! Am I pregnant?...What if I'm not!....Is that a possible pregnancy symptom?!?  Then on top of that when you do an ET you are pumping yourself full of hormones! So, you get symptoms from that and you go on a roller coaster of emotions. This time period is particularly hard on someone like me! (impatient, lol). I bought a bunch of pregnancy tests before we even went to CA so I could test every day! Gotta love the Dollar Tree and their $1 tests! Of course realistically this just makes things worse because of my impatience I test way to early telling my self that I know it's early so it won't bother me, but deep down every time I saw a negative it was painful! Which just made me go up and down worse. Fighting my emotions for faith!!

On Wednesday I had a blood work to check my estrogen and progesterone levels. The nurse called and said my numbers looked FANTASTIC! This was nice to hear, but I still had to battle with worry.

So after a few days of negative tests I decided to stop for a day or two. I was strong the next morning and did not test! I was so proud of myself, but still found my self starting to go down the spiral of fear and sorrow. Thankfully I was able to stop myself from going too deep and turned on the worship music and turned my focus away from the circumstances to Jesus and simply worshiped him (while ironing). It's amazing what that can do for your heart! I'm so thankful I have God to help me when things are hard!

However....that afternoon I tossed and turned as I tried to nap which has been a regular need since returning from CA...So I got up and decided to take a test...I figured I have enough of them I might as well use them. Besides, it's the afternoon so my pee is diluted so there is a high probability that it will be negative so it won't affect me (Haha, more lying to myself). I did and when I looked at it right after, it was negative...I switched the laundry and looked at it again just a few minutes later and I saw a faint line!!!! I was over the moon!!! I text my hubby a picture of it and he didn't look close and thought if it was positive it would show a + not that he should be looking for // (two lines). So he just thought I was fessing up that I gave in and took a test and that it was negative! The next morning I took another test and sure enough two lines. It's still not super dark, but definitely there!!

I've been pretty tired, and peeing ALL the time!! I've also started being fairly nauseous and smells are getting to me, but I thank GOD for pregnancy symptoms!! Funny how after having 4 babies even though it was 5+ years ago, my belly remembers the shape to go into! So at 4 weeks prego, I'm basically pulling out the few maternity clothes I've gathered since starting this process and looking for more!

There's still a long way to go so I speak life to my babies and break death and any assignment of the enemy several times a day. Pretty much anytime fear tries to come in. I would appreciate you all praying that with me! Monday I get blood work to check my HCG levels and then again on Wednesday to make sure they are doubling. Then around the last week of March I will go in for an ultrasound to check on my precious beans!!

We would also appreciate prayers and gifts for our financial need. We appreciate all levels of support!!