Sometimes things don't go quite as you plan...
Today I was scheduled to talk to the doctor at 2:30. Perfect. Izzy will be down for a nap and I will have a little time to pray and unwind...however things changed... I was out running errands keeping very aware of the time to make sure I was home in plenty of time! While I was just walking away from the cash register at my last stop, I got a call. I knew as it rang it was the doctor and my heart sank. Oh no, this is not good timing! ...I answered and sure enough it was the nurse. She said I know it's early but are you available to talk to the doctor now?
(thinking to my self.....Like I'm going to say no?!? I'm too excited and I don't have patience. I'm not going to risk putting it off a day or two.)
I said I'm just walking away from the register, can you give me 5 minutes to get in the car? She said yes, I'll have him call you in 5. So I rush to the car trying not to fumble getting my keys out of my purse trying to make sure I'm good and settled by the time he calls. I get Izzy in the car and text a friend to pray!! And I try to calm myself! It's not just that I'm driving, but Izzy likes to talk and needs responses the whole time when it's just her and I. So he calls and again he asks if it's okay and says he's sorry for screwing up the time but his wife wanted him home at a specific time and he wanted to make his wife happy.
(Now that is a great hubby, brownie points right there, even tho it messes me up)
So, Izzy was difficult as expected, but he was really nice. He really seems to care about these babies and his patients! I shared a very brief story of us and gave him our medical history. He said I need to start taking prenatal vitamins, so funny but a little thing like that makes me excited like I'm closer to having a baby! Also, to get information to the nurse about what we are open too genetic wise. My husband and I feel that every life is deserving of a loving family so we are open to ANY race!
We originally were working towards an open adoption since it is easier on the child(ren), but I got overwhelmed with the spirit this afternoon about how anonymous babies need love even more because their bio parents don't want to even know about them! It will make things more challenging for us, but I want to show them love like no other and that they ARE wanted!
We are still open to an open adoption and have our profile up on Miracles Waiting, so we will see what door the Lord opens.
The other factor is that we are only looking for a few embryo's because we will give all embies that we are matched with a chance at life, and since we already have 5, we don't want to get 10 embryo's.
So know we WAIT, the dreaded WAIT till we get matched. Once matched there is only about a month before I can have the procedure and get pregnant! I would really like to get pregnant before Christmas, but it's all in God's hands now and I trust that his timing is perfect!
So far we have been blessed tremendously, but we still need to raise a good amount of money to cover the lawyer fees, medication, procedure, more drugs, and travel expenses. There are still 2 days to take advantage of the Massage raffle!
Keep us in prayers and we appreciate any encouraging words!!!!
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