Heard from the Lawyer! Oh my Heart!

I hear my phone ring and see the caller id give a California number! Anxiously and nervously I answer the phone and am greatly relieved to hear the amazing lawyer's assistance's voice. I have fallen in love with her! She is so super sweet and relate-able and am so grateful for her! She tells me that they finally heard back from the donors attorney and that the donors wanted to make a few changes of the contract we sent....

1.) They don't want there to be ANY form of communication or contact possible. Initially the contract said that either family could contact the clinic and that the clinic would contact the other family. A safe way, and gives either side the option of saying no, but they don't even want that as an option! My heart sunk!!! I'm sure they have their reasons, and I respect that, but my heart breaks for these babies! When they get older and wonder why, or who, or wish they could get to know their genetic sibling! We knew going the anonymous way would be harder, but it was nice thinking we had the possibility of hope to give them! But, that's okay, because we know God wanted us to go this route to give them the LOVE they so deserve and we WILL!

2.) We are not allowed to donate to a third party, if we don't use all the embryos, then we have to destroy them! WHAT?!?!?! My GOD have MERCY!!! We plan to give the chance of life to each one of them, but what if, heaven for bid, something happens to me during one of the pregnancies, to where I can't have anymore children?! I COULD NOT destroy them, so the LORD has to keep my body safe for THEM!!! However, if necessary we could use a surrogate. Thankful we have that as an option, all though I pray we never have to go that route!

Beyond this gut wrenching news is at least a LIGHT at the end of the tunnel! We will sign off on the final copy (tonight hopefully) and then they have to sign and return and they will be OURS!!! Hopefully by early next week!!!! THEN WE CAN SET AN FET DATE!!!!!

Prayers:
    1.) That the donor couple will not be lackadaisical in getting it signed and returned!
    2.) Finances
    3.) To give me wisdom in setting up all the details for the trip to LA for the FET. I need to find someone that can go with me, because I will be drugged up and unable to drive and will have to be on bed-rest for a few days before returning home. Also, to find good flights, hotel, ect....

THANK YOU

Stubborn Body! WARNING TMI

So I have been on birth control for several weeks now (all active pills), but my body is revolting! I started to spot yesterday and then bleed lightly. I e-mailed the nurse who said to take 2 pills for 3 days and then go back to one and let her know if it doesn't work. Well, I continued to lightly bleed all day yesterday and woke up to some decent bleeding today and despite having all the hormones in my body AF is pushing through even with cramps :(   I e-mailed the nurse first thing this morning and she said to stop taking it and start back up in 5 days. This was pretty heartbreaking! I was worried it would set me back! I'm trying to just rest in knowing that God's timing is perfect and even if it's not mine, it WILL be GOOD! We could still do a December FET but.....

we still have not heard back from the donor's attorney!! It has been 3 WEEKS!!! We know the donors have reviewed it with their attorney last week, but still haven't heard back!! All these "show stoppers" are killing me! It also doesn't help to get more bills! Blood work that my insurance didn't cover, and the initial consult with Dr Kumar. It's hard seeming to get set backs and bills with out good news to go with it! I really would like to get the legal work set so we can just set a FET date! Give me something to look forward to, and so I can start the planning process of getting plane tickets, a place to stay, childcare, ect....

Please pray for things to get rolling and to be able to set an FET date! And of course for finances! We have been very blessed so far, but still need quite a bit!! Thank you all for you support and prayers, they are so GREATLY appreciated!!!

Still waiting.....

The contract is at the donors attorney and we are still waiting to hear back from them so we can finalize everything and so I can set an FET date. It is "killing" me, but I guess I need to grow in patients a little more. In the mean time, I'm trying to enjoy being on vacation visiting family in Pa/Ny! It's a little hard feeling pulled in different directions (fun family/embryo adoption) but at the same time I'm thankful for the distraction!!! My attorney said hopefully we will have more info early this week! So stay tuned.... Please keep us in your prayers. Pray for peace, finances, and all the ins and outs of the process to go smooth!! And....protection for our family against the enemy who is not happy with us!! Thank you all who have supported us this far in every way!!!!

First Doctor Apointment and Contract Draft

So, things are moving along....I've been on birth control for a week, and this weekend we got all the forms we have to fill-out and an order to get a PAP and blood work done. Both are scheduled for Wednesday morning!!! Along with the forms we had to fill out, was essentially a bill! I was pretty anxious and stressed about all the costs, but realized God put us on this journey and he will provide for it!

MINOR UPDATE----Last night we received the contract draft that makes the embryo's OURS!! We are going over it with the lawyer tonight and then just have to have the donors go over it and sign it to make it official!! This is getting so real!!! So excited!! Soon we will be a family of 13!!

Pharmacy Run...

So, today I e-mailed the clinic to see where things were at and what things look like as we go forward.I was excited to get a response today. Sometimes it takes a day or two. The assistant was finally able to reach the donor couple today and is arranging everything on their end. I will be getting all the paperwork this week! She said she would have to put me on birth control when I'm on day 2 of my period. I responded right away because today is day 3 and I asked if I had to wait a whole extra month. She said I could get on it tonight. I had her call in the script to the pharmacy with an hour to spare before the pharmacy closed! I have to be one of the happiest people to be going to get on BCP! But I am, why? Because it means I'm that much closer to getting my babies!! Also, a sweet blessing...it was totally covered by my insurance with no copay!! I will be on all active pills until all the legal stuff is sorted out and we pick a transfer date!! I will go off the pills for 3.5 weeks before the FET.

We also, looked at baby names tonight!! I have to say, that is one thing we have never had a hard time with. I'm so thankful!! I know it takes a long time for some couples to agree on names. Paul and I have 4 names picked out. 2 Boy and 2 Girl so no matter how things roll, we got it covered!!

If your local we would love to see you at our fundraising yard sale and buy some stuff or just say hi! If your not local you can still help by donating via the link to the left!

ADOPTION FUNDRAISING YARD SALE-----Saturday, Sept 28th-----8am-6pm-----
-----6613 E 123rd Ter Grandview, Mo 64030------ Come check it out and help a great cause! A large variety of stuff!! Including, but not limited to: baby stuff, furniture, clothing kids and adult, kitchen stuff, ect.... We will be accepting Credit Cards for purchases over $5!

Lawyer step....

Thank you all for your amazing love, support, and prayers!! We need them!!Okay, so we made the big decision to adopt 6 Filipino embryo's, but before the "fun" part we have to work with our lawyer Lesa. Of course our end of things will be done SUPER fast, because I'm excited! However, the donor side of things can take a little more time simply because they aren't in a hurry, because it's not as much of a priority for them. Lesa said it can be 1-3 weeks till they are officially mine! Oh my, that will feel like forever to me. I'm praying that they understand my urgency and don't doddle! In the mean time, I'm trying to see if I can start the birth control part of the process, so that when things are settled legally with the embies, we are that much closer to being able to do the FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer). If you know me, or as you can see, patient is not a word that describes me!! Never has been. You can ask my MOM! I'm trying to not be too anxious...Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.... So, if you think about it, please pray for my heart and nerves to be calm and trust God's timing! And pray the staff doesn't get annoyed with my pushing ;)

Also, this means we have to pay a big chunk of $$ to the lawyer! So, more than half of what we've raised so far will be gone, but....Praise God we have it!!

Other than straight donations, we are trying to raise money a couple of other ways......

First we are doing a 10 day fundraiser through Chrome Buffalo selling t-shirts. We get $11 for every t-shirt sold!! You can check it out and buy one HERE!!

Also, I do family/maternity/baby photo shoots for a suggested donation of only $99 

You can check out my work on my Facebook Page  HERE

And the decision is....

After a weekend full of prayer and listening we have decided to go forward with adopting 6 Filipino Embryos!! There are all sorts of feelings!! Excitement, fear, anxious, EXCITEMENT! We were originally looking for around 4, but really feel led to these 6 Filipino babies! There are so many variables! We don't know out of these 6 how many will survive the thawing process and from there, how many will take in my womb. They will only do 2 at a time, so I will NOT be having sextuplets!! But, there is a possibility of having 3 sets of twins. VERY, very slim, but possible. Or we could only end up with one baby out of 6. We are just going to have to wait and see what the Lord has in store for us! Please keep us in prayers as we continue in this journey! The next step is working with a lawyer to get them legally ours! Then we will start the process of getting my body prepared! I'm not sure of a time line, but it looks very possible to be pregnant in November or December!! Trying not to set my expectation too high, but I have hope! It's amazing how attached to these babies I am already! I love having someone to specifically pray for!! I will hopefully be in contact with the lawyer today and learn more from my doctors office! I will keep you all posted!! So keep praying things go smoothly, and funds come in!!